Saturday, 3 October 2009

essence of grow up.

I do love a good old bitter break up. No,I really do. You know the ones where your ex-partner refuses to return your stuff,leaving you very frustrated,and refuses to feel any guilt for a break up that he cruelly initiated? The ones where you stay up all night crying and angry because he's refusing to co-operate with you? Where your mum is rushed to hospital with low white blood cells and high temperature and he really doesn't give two shits? Yes,great fan.

NOT.

Seriously,the guy really needs to grow up and get some balls. No money to return my stuff? NO EXCUSE. I live straight opposite my Student Union,yet I could have got a train to Salford and dropped the stuff off myself,but I thought better. It's his turn to get his act together. The relationship has been over a month now,and he's telling me to make new friends,move on properly etc etc. But he's preventing me from doing even that. I can't even talk to a guy or another girl without lamenting the end, worried that my next boyfriend/friend is going to stab me in the back,get bored and run. Because my friends,that is effectively what my ex boyfriend has done. Stuck the knife in, wriggled the knife a little bit to cause more pain,and then wrenched it back out again (in metaphorical terms) and ran for the hills to live his lovely new life. And to be honest,I don't hold it against him,although what he did to me was extremely heartless and wholly unforgivable. Not once did I get up and leave when he had a mental health crisis. I actually took him to the hospital in Salford once and waited up into the small hours for him to see a duty psychiatrist. When he woke up from nightmares,I listened to him talk. I was exhausted,but I cared for him a great deal and continued to do so until my mum fell ill. His response to that? ''I didn't need an explanation. I was aware of those things. Now go''. Well love,enjoy your new life,because I hold no personal malice towards you. It's a real shame that you do.

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