In the Christmas holidays I was attacked by a girl from my old school. It wasn't meant to have started in my defence,but one glance sparked the confrontation off and she laid into me after words were exchanged. The mental aftermath was hard to deal with,I found myself flipping out at my boyfriend and my parents,and the Telford police were utterly unhelpful. Just because the girl was painted like a doll,me and my family all feel he took her side. Thankfully Manchester Victim Support stepped in and the woman was utterly helpful. I can't stand chauvinistic and immature men who only think with their trouser snake,in all honesty (it says a lot for the closed minded town, where I grew up for 5 years),so the support from Manchester,where I live and study,was more than valuable.
My mother's remission also came as a welcome change for me, and I did text my ex to tell him that she was no longer ill,and left it at that. However,going to Salford still holds funny albeit painful memories which I would rather erase from my mind by way of self preservation,though life is way too short to erase the funnies (such as pouring bubble bath into the fountain at the Old Fire Station opposite Salford University). I do believe as a woman though that I let my ex have his hold over me, and as the now ex girlfriend of a man (though he is very childlike) who has serious mental health issues, I felt free when it was over,even though the affair of breaking up was dragged out for far too long. I felt devastated that I had lost someone I loved,or thought that I had loved,before he let his problems exacerbate. I had none,except a low mood which is part of my reality and I try my best to fight it. I feel that coming off the anti depressants,by my own volition,was the best decision I feel that I've ever made. Like I say,I have met someone new who I feel comfortable in my own skin with,and who I know I can have my own time away from without feeling like I have to explain myself. 2010 could well be my year,I'm maturer that I was at 18 (am nearly 21) having left home,but I also know my own priorities this time around.