day 3.

1. Get dressed and have breakfast.

2. Have a cigarette.

3. Go up to the Union and around Oxford Road (can't face Manchester City Centre just yet) to find jobs.

4. Give friends a call to let them know how I'm doing.

5. Cook dinner and relax.

I have successfully managed to complete yesterday's list,I was utterly upbeat after speaking to people,and I arranged my therapy for next week. It was painful to drop his things off at the Student Union,but I managed it. I find it hard to delete some of the text messages he sent me,which buoyed me up a great deal,but I need to let go gradually. I do not rely on him anymore,and he is not my responsibility. Though I think to myself about little comments he made about cheating on me and being tempted. Why would a boyfriend say that to someone that he obviously loved? Is he insecure,or just plain selfish? When I threatened to leave him in the midst of hard times,it was because it was too much for me and he was being demanding of me. And I'm glad that we both went our separate ways,because he can live his life,and I can live mine.